optimistic me

So, went to Manual Therapy today, wich I will refere to as MT from now on. They wont touch me! Can you believe it. You drag yourself over there in the hope to be rid of the pain soon and they say they wont touch you out of fear of making it worse. But they did give me a couple of excersises I need to do to losen up my back, at least try to, and then they can determen where the pain started better. All I can do is hope this isn't going to be a very long process. Exept ofcourse for the fact that one of the attendant there is really cute. I was a half hour to early today and sat in the waitingroom when he can, a blond young man about 25 years old, to get one of his patients. I was reading a magazine but something made me look up just as he was looking at me. I couldn't do anything but keep looking at him and he had the same. As he walked down the hall he looked back 4 times, I counted. Weird how chemistry can be there with a complete stranger. A really gorgeous stranger though, hihi.

Anyways, I got the advice to take it easy and come back friday morning at 8 o'clock. Yes, way early. I'm not a morning person at all, Owh well. I'm going back to work tomorrow though. I called my manager and said I would be but that I probable needed to sit a lot in between. I need to do something though. I'm not one for just sitting home. Lord knows I will never be a housewife!

And I've decided to stay optimistic. I mean, it could have been worse. And the bright side is the cute Therapist and that at least I didn't take time of work for something that could be helped within one afternoon. It wasn't useless and unnecessary. And I got to sleep in 3 days in a row. And that after not having slept in for almost a year feels magical. And besides, it's no use feeling sorry for yourself because you haven't had a single moment without pain for the last week. There are other people who've had that for a lot longer and will have it for a much longer time to come. And thinking positive also keeps you going, keeps your spirits up and that's what I'll really need these next two weeks to come when it will be madness at work and I can't escape to the storage like I always do. I will be working on the floor full-time now. being the sales-lady that I am. I mean, I've already proven once that I'm a great sales-lady, so now I have a chance to remind them of that. And it will give me the hard needed change in my routine. Give me a new challenge. Staying bright and smiling and selling as much as possible while in pain. Love a challenge. And I can right away use it as acting lessons. haven't had them in a while. But that's ok. With no intension of sounding arrogant, I've got talent for acting. So all I have to do is act like someone who's really bright and happy and without any pain what so ever and I could just fool anyone. As long as I don't forget my trusty painkillers. I found them helping today. As long as I don't wait for the first one to stop working before taking the second and so on. And I do need the extra paracetamol (sort asprine) next to it though. I just always get into these weird moods because of painkillers. Sometimes they make me all woozy and out of focus and the other time they make me all hyper and I think everything is funny. Lets hope that the last option will be the case tomorrow and the next days to come. I just need to find something against the nausea that I get from the damned painkillers and I'll be just fine. In any case fine enough haha.

Well better get to bed then. If I really want this plan to work I need to start by getting a good nights sleep. Hope that part works seeing as in I haven't slept well for the last week. But I've taking enough painkillers today to knock me out cold, I hope!