Mcdreamy

I'm sure most of you know the series Grey's Anatomy. And you all know the situation with her and Dereck. Well, I to have a Mcdreamy. We flirted excessively a couple of months ao and he said he was going to leave his girlfriend and try it with me. It was more than the usual flirt. He broke up with her alright, but he went back to her as well. Without so much as telling me by the way. We never really talked about it anymore and this left me with a lot of questions. He knows I want to talk to him though and we soon will if he cares even a bit about me and my feelings.

But last night I had a dream. And not my usual dreams about us being together. But a dream like reality. We were just friends in a weird situation but trying to make the best of it. A sort of a weird tension between us but ignoring it because his girlfriend is there and isn't aloud to know. Which ofcourse I thought was wrong of him. He should have told her before they started dating again.
But anyways, this dream is progress. It's a sure step to the end of self-torture over this. Because hoping for something more than being friends is useless. He went back to her and it doesn't matter how much in love with him I am. He is not in love with me and that is starting to really sink in. There's no use hoping for a happy ending. I don't even think one is possible with him anyways. And besides, they're moving in together within a half year or something. I can't compete with that. I can't compete with there feelings for eachother. But you know what. I don't have to. There are plenty of guys out there that would be way better for me than Mcdreamy!