Owh no, she's in the hostpital

Of course there had to be some bad news. Things where going too well. My aunt is in the hostpital. She was submitted last night when she called in for heart-problems. Seeing as in she's a heart-patient she was submitted right away and they have been doing tests ever since. She'll probably have to stay tonight as well. My biggest fear with going to America is not the flying, which I'm really scared of, at least only the lift off and the landing. No my biggest fear is that something will happen to the people I left behind here and that I won't be able to be there right away. If something should happen and I need to get over here it will take at least 9 hours and that's with a direct flight that leaves right away.
What if something should happen to my father, mother or little sister. Or my aunt, uncle and cousins. And what if something should happen to one of my friends. We will have said goodbye, that's the trueth. But we will have said goodbye with the idea of seeing eachother again.
All I can do is hope nothing will happen and believe in it with all my might. I mean, whenever you think something will happen it usually does. So maybe if I think nothing will happen, it won't... right.And the truth is, will all of this, this whole trip and life in fact, only time can tell. It's stupid and senseless to fear the futher and to keep thinking what if. Because it can't be helped.
I just hope my aunt is going to be ok. And that we'll be able to visit her tonight. There's nothing more to do than to see the people you love as often as possible without putting your own needs aside to much. I'm leaving in 4 days. I'd better start thinking positive again. All that negativity is bad for my karma. And we all know how karma works right...