Packing dreams

Had such a weird dream last night. It went from one thing to the next and all subjects were things I was or am now worrying about. First of all there was the part in the dream that I was packing my bags for America. It was the day or something before I actually left and there was a problem with the bags. I got to borrow one big suitcase from friends of my mom and I had that one completly filled. I should have gotten a nother big suitcase from my mom herself, but she didn't want to give it wich meant I had to put the rest of my stuff in sportbags. But this meant that I would have 3 bags to check in in totale and that wasn't aloud. It's up to two bags to check in and there was no way I could carry it all. But still my mom wouldn't lend me the other suitcase. She was trying to stop me from going on the trip.

Then there was a different part of the dream which I don't really remember. But then came yet another part that I do remember. I was with my ex and yet again it was a dream in which we had a realationship again, to say the least.

So the things I'm worried about...
First of all there's my mom. I know she is happy for me for getting the chance to make a trip like this one. But I also know that she doesn't really want me to go, that she is jealous of me and my sister getting to see the family, and that's she's worried about me being there by myself (which I'm not really, I'm with family mostly) and that her worst fear is that I decide to like it so much that I decide to stay there. She's scared stiff about me taking this trip. And that makes me worry about her. If she's going to be ok while I'm there. Will she be getting any sleep and will she be slightly enjoyable for my little sister haha.

The other thing I'm worried about is obvious. I had my third or somehting dream about my ex and I getting together again. It's just always physical and not really that I love you kind of thing. When actually when we were together the physical wasn't terrific. It was good, but not something to write a book about. So why these dreams. My subconcious way of telling me I still like him, still want to be with him or 'my subconcious way of getting over him or maybe even my subconcious way of getting over Mcdreamy. I mean one way of getting over someone is by thinking and dreaming about someone else. Love to cure love. And there isn't really somebody else to think and dream about, exept one but that would only get me into a whole lot of more love-trouble. So maybe this is the safest bet. I don't know. But I don't think that thinking about it much will help the matter. I think that thinking about it and trying to understand it will only make it worse. And in this kind of situation, by both of these matters, only time can tell.