waiting

Such a weird feeling. Waking up in the morning and getting breakfast in bed and a gift and you don't even fully realize it's your birthday. I woke up early by the sound of my parents and little sis singing me a happy birthday, had my breakfast, took a shower and was ready to go do my shopping for the party tonight at 10.30. Nice was that my work had called to wish me a happy birthday as well. They had given me the day off for just that reason and I had gotten my gift from them yesterday (nice showergel). Papa and I were back from doing shopping at 12 and the four of us sat down for a nice indonesian lunch. After that I got to clean house, also for the party tonight. But it all went pretty fast and I was completly done at 14.oo o'clock. Now I'm taking a moments rest and will be going to a birthday party soon. A friend of mine (from work) was also born on this day and invited me as well. So I'm going to meet up with Anouk in about an hour, then go to Zeist and have a couple of drinks. Then we have to take the bus back home and be back around 7 pm, have a quick bite to eat and start recieving the first guests around 20.00, let's hope they're not going to be here before that. Anouk will eat here because she'll have to be leaving earlier tonight. She's flying to Florida tomorrow. And that's the feeling I'm talking about. All these plans around my birthday and the only thing that's going through my mind is my trip to America. It's just 3 more weeks. I already said goodbye to my first people whom I won't be seeing anymore and that really makes it seem so close. I hardly even care about my intake at my school this tuesday.
What I do care about is that I only have next week and 3 days after that that I'll be working and then it will be time for me to say goodbye to my colleagues and 10 days later I'll be going. It's really coming together now. I end work on the 28th of febuari. On the first of march (the next day) I'll be going to Amsterdam with mama to buy presents for the family in America. Then I'll have time to visit friends and pack, do all my washing, clean up my room and so on. Then on the 8th of march I'll be giving a going away party and then the 9th I can sleep in and get my last things packed so I can fly away on the morning of the 10th. So close, so close. Yet always still so far away. And I don't even feel like a birthday girl...

catch up blog

Days go by so quickly. It's only 30 more days before I board the plane that will take me out of this cold, snowy-white country to the big US of A. Where ofcourse it will also be cold in Tennessee and where I'll also be facing snow in the mountains and even in the valley's of Utah. Right now I can't even enjoy the snow though. No placing a footprint where no one else has yet. Not hearing the soft crispy sounds of the freshfallen snow under my feet. No, I'm sick. I have been since Saturday, when I fainted in the middle of the floor at work. I'm actually starting to get better but am not there yet. But it's thursday already and if there's one thing I don't like to do it's doing nothing. So I'm going to work again tomorrow. No way a little flu and a high temperture are keeping me down. Temperture dropped already and the only thing really bothering me is being very very sleepy and feeling slightly weezy and faint. And ofcourse my bad cold. But I'll just need to work tomorrow and then I'll be free for 4 days again. So no problem. Only 2 more days working owith one of my good friends there though. It's going to be so boring once she leaves. Wendsday is going to be her last day, but I'll be free monday and Tuesday so that leaves just the two days for us to work together.

Have good news though. I bought my train ticket from Tennessee to Utah. It takes about 50 hours to travel the distance with an 4,5 hour stop in Chicago. Will be great fun though. Which reminds me that I have to email grandpa to ask him to pick me up at the station when I arrive in SLC.

Owh and my drivers-ed. teacher, the idiot payed 140 euro's back. Slid an envelope with money through the door with a single note. Sorry for the delay, my internet modem was broke and more blabla. But not one mention of the still 519 euro's I'm still sepossed to get from him. So I have an appointment with an lawyer this monday. Don't think the ass-hole really expects me to take on a lawyer so this will show him not to mess with me. I'm not afraid of battleing this till the end. Untill I get my money or people convince me that I don't have a right to it. The last one will be a hard thing to do though. So better wish me luck on that one. I have to meet with the lawyer alone and he'd better take me seriously or he'll have it coming. I'm sick and tierd of having to chase my own money and fighting to get it, so he either does it for me or he gets me somebody else who will.
(Wauw, that sounds brave and assertive, should be that way on Monday to haha)

Well, it's an early night for me. I'm going to work again tomorrow and hope to God that I don't faint again or anything else that has to do with being sick haha.

Owh and that reminds me. I'm going to B.'s birthday tomorrow. You know, my ex. I have no idea what to get him now that we split up but are just friends. surely I can't just get him money or booz like every other friend. It has to be a gift with meaning, but not with to much meaning. This being friends at times is harder then I thought it would be. And sometimes easier. There's never reall clearety on that. Owh well...

I'm a poet, don't you know it

It's been a while since I've written anything here and a lot of things have happend. A lot of good things. Most of them today, of most things are good ones. And that's all I'm going to concentrate on now, because that are the most important things. The bad things are all things that can be fixed and seem unimportant right now.

Good news item #1
I got a letter from my new school inviting me for the intake meeting for the 20th of februari. I already paid the entrance fee and everything and so this means that I have a study to start once I get back from America.

Good news item #2
I'm being published. Can you believe it. I participated in an anual poetry contest on poetry.com with the poem 'In mornings dew' which can also be found on this blog and via that I'm going to be published in the book Immortal Verses (or that's the name so far). It's being printed Spring 2007.

Good news item #3
Has everything to do with good news item #2. Not only is that poem being published. It's also gotten me into the semi-finals and that means I have a good change of winning one of the 104 cash-prices up to 10.000 dollars.

Good news item #4
Also has to do with #2 and #3. I was also nominated to be published in another book called The international who's who in poetry. I submitted a different poem for this called 'birth'.

Good news item #5
I got a bigger chance at getting my money back from my dumb-ass drivers-ed. teacher. This guy owes me about 700 euro's and so far has not paid me back. Now me and my dad have send him a letter telling him he has 7 days to pay or else we'll get a lawyer involved. We know for a fact he read the letter because he had to sign for it and we got the confirmation. So if he's somewhat smart he'll know that a meeting with the lawyer won't be in his best interest and he'll just pay. Let's hope.

Good news item #6
Only 28 more days at my job and then just 38 more days before I get on the plane to the states!!!!