decisions decisions

So, this always happens to me whenever I'm on vacation for my rest. I start stressing about a lot of stuff. The thing that has really been on my mind lately is the fact that I don't really like my school. The course I'm taking that is. I mean, sure Interior design is one of my interests, but not that much so. I don't see myself doing that for the rest of my life. What I can see myself doing is starting my own cafe. Food and drinks, you know. But that would mean that the college I'm going to now is unnecessary and a big fat waist of money.
I remember going there on the first day of school and my mom asked me if I was excited about it. And I told her, NO, not at all. And she said I probably just had to get into it again. I've been trying (really I have) for the past 6 months and really, NO, I do not want to do this. The study is OK, I guess. But not for me. It's just not me in the sense that I find myself in it 100%. I don't think it suits me even 50%. But then I get to thinking, If not this, then what. And honestly... I don't know. My other interests would be traveling and working in a bar/cafe/hotel/restaurant. And there are colleges for that, but I don't know if that's me either. There's just so much and yet so less that I would want to do with the rest of my life. I could just take up the advise from some people and keep doing this school or else become a model. But keep going at a school that I don't have any motivation for. It drains me and it's just not worth the money either. I go to a very expensive school, have to pay for it myself and don't find enjoyment in it at all!!!!

My mom and dad will want to kill me if I tell them. But really. It's only going to be one year of this for me. I just can't do it. There is zero motivation and if it hasn't come after half a year of trying, then it probably wont ever come. I'm over trying to please my parents with doing this and feeling sucky myself. It's so not worth it!!!!!!!!!!!